Just now I have read back my all blog...
The sad thing is... I still keep asking god to bless me...
But the happy thing is I know I more mature now...
I can compare myself in 2010... Now I more know in how to control my attitude and the way I thinking is more mature and different... This should be a good news...
But the worst thing is... I;m more down... being low power... I have no energy to motivation myself... after I look back my blog... the found and realize is... Me... Now... I'm not happy... I've no dreams in my everyday... I just like customary all the thing... Including my life... My heart just like "JUST ACCEPT"
Can't believe... Just 3 years...
Now... I'm jealous... I jealous me when I in 2007...
God, thanks for your blessing... I hope that one day I can found my dreams and my soul... Thanks...
Thursday, September 30, 2010
寂寞
寂寞。莫过于在一群人群中一个人默默的呆着
寂寞。莫过于失去一个真心朋友
寂寞。莫过于在一个办公室里只有自己在认真的工作
寂寞。莫过于被曾经是共患难的朋友排斥
寂寞。莫过于被人误解却无法解释的无奈
寂寞。莫过于被自己的家人认为是个难相处的人
寂寞。莫过于被家人认为自己不如一个外人
寂寞。莫过于看着别人的家庭嘻嘻哈哈的欢笑，自己却没有
寂寞。莫过于自己的无能被认为是自私
寂寞。莫过于自己的母亲向外人投诉孩子的缺点
寂寞。莫过于想实现自己的梦想却得不到家人的支持
寂寞。莫过于接受了别人的赞赏却被家人嫌弃
寂寞。莫过于有过人的天分，却没有人看得见
寂寞。莫过于在一间大房子里却只听到自己的呼吸
寂寞。莫过于家人都健在却怎么聚都无法聚在一起
寂寞。莫过于家里的胡闹声里找不到自己的声音
寂寞。莫过于病了却得不到任何的关心
寂寞。莫过于在伤心时得不到任何的安慰
寂寞。莫过于在人群中以为找到了知己，却发现原来在被人利用着
寂寞。莫过于满怀希望后，到头来却是一场空。。。 。。。
寂寞。莫过于失去一个真心朋友
寂寞。莫过于在一个办公室里只有自己在认真的工作
寂寞。莫过于被曾经是共患难的朋友排斥
寂寞。莫过于被人误解却无法解释的无奈
寂寞。莫过于被自己的家人认为是个难相处的人
寂寞。莫过于被家人认为自己不如一个外人
寂寞。莫过于看着别人的家庭嘻嘻哈哈的欢笑，自己却没有
寂寞。莫过于自己的无能被认为是自私
寂寞。莫过于自己的母亲向外人投诉孩子的缺点
寂寞。莫过于想实现自己的梦想却得不到家人的支持
寂寞。莫过于接受了别人的赞赏却被家人嫌弃
寂寞。莫过于有过人的天分，却没有人看得见
寂寞。莫过于在一间大房子里却只听到自己的呼吸
寂寞。莫过于家人都健在却怎么聚都无法聚在一起
寂寞。莫过于家里的胡闹声里找不到自己的声音
寂寞。莫过于病了却得不到任何的关心
寂寞。莫过于在伤心时得不到任何的安慰
寂寞。莫过于在人群中以为找到了知己，却发现原来在被人利用着
寂寞。莫过于满怀希望后，到头来却是一场空。。。 。。。
Monday, September 20, 2010
Today is 20 sept 2010, he has left us 2 days ago... I so miss him... Without him... I feel I have lose something... Everytime I have saw him every where... If I called him, he will run to me as fast as he can.... How lovely he are....
But now... I don't know what should I do.... I know... I should more take care of DoDo... I cant lose her... I need to keep Dodo in healthy ... I must... I know I cant lose anymore...
Dydy... You have done good in your part... So I wish and I hope you can rest in peace... Now I know you will stay with god... one day, I'll see you again... We will...
Love you... ...
But now... I don't know what should I do.... I know... I should more take care of DoDo... I cant lose her... I need to keep Dodo in healthy ... I must... I know I cant lose anymore...
Dydy... You have done good in your part... So I wish and I hope you can rest in peace... Now I know you will stay with god... one day, I'll see you again... We will...
Love you... ...
Monday, September 6, 2010
好烦~~~
烦啊~~~
也不懂为何这么烦？！
头也很痛！
肚子也不懂为什么不舒服！
今天就是整身不对劲！！
喉咙也有点不舒服！
颈项也酸痛！！
天啊！！！
更槽糕的是眼睛！酸痛啊！！！
想吐！！！
看来我还真是问题人物！！
看医生， 医生老是文不对题！
明明就很他说明头很不舒服，却老是给我胃痛的药！！
好想回家躺着！！！
好困哦~~~
也不懂为何这么烦？！
头也很痛！
肚子也不懂为什么不舒服！
今天就是整身不对劲！！
喉咙也有点不舒服！
颈项也酸痛！！
天啊！！！
更槽糕的是眼睛！酸痛啊！！！
想吐！！！
看来我还真是问题人物！！
看医生， 医生老是文不对题！
明明就很他说明头很不舒服，却老是给我胃痛的药！！
好想回家躺着！！！
好困哦~~~
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Speechless
I still remember that Lady Gaga have a song names Speechless...
Today I need to stay OT, cause is Thursday and is my turn to stay... Is boring and sad... I have no mood to do anything... Maybe something is effect me!!! I feel sad... Just like I'm lost myself... I don't know what I'm going to do... But I know somethings wrong, just like this afternoon, there was a customer walk- in, is a uncle, he bring a statement to me and two copy of newspaper... The fund that he have invest is China Select fund, but unfortunately the performance is terrible, and due to the fund is high risk type, he have lose around RM13++ maybe for certain ppl will think that was a small amount, but for him, he can't accept at all, he said that if he know that will be lose, why not he just put the money into FD?! I have try to explain everything, but he not listen at all, he just live in his world... He just believe what he think... He bring the newspaper is the advertisement of Our company.... There was some award and a list of our good performance fund name list... He ask that is that company take the fundholder money put into others fund for push the performance... I try to give him some general knowledge... But he just like close his ear... And he want to see the manager... That time, I have think that, should I call the the servicing agent? Instead of ask the manager come to the counter... ? I have pick up the phone and start dial the first three number... And I stop... Because I know some of agent they have no responsibility at all... If I call them, they maybe will challenge the customer and makes the customer more angry... So I put down the phone, and walk to my manager... After I tell her about the story, she said she will help me to explain to customer... And she did... But the thing is, after my boss she came out to the counter, and everytime that she try to explain, the customer was try to argue with her and ask my boss give back the money to him.. What he means is full amount that he have invest... How can it be? He just like lost control, finally my boss ask me to help the customer make the redeemsion due to the customer request too...
I dunno how to say and how to do... Have do the correct decision? That's no answer... Only the time I'm doing the appraisal will know...
What I know is my preformance is just like a nut!!!!
Hope that's not so bad like my imagine...
Hope that my boss can more look for my strength...
I hope soooooo...
Today I need to stay OT, cause is Thursday and is my turn to stay... Is boring and sad... I have no mood to do anything... Maybe something is effect me!!! I feel sad... Just like I'm lost myself... I don't know what I'm going to do... But I know somethings wrong, just like this afternoon, there was a customer walk- in, is a uncle, he bring a statement to me and two copy of newspaper... The fund that he have invest is China Select fund, but unfortunately the performance is terrible, and due to the fund is high risk type, he have lose around RM13++ maybe for certain ppl will think that was a small amount, but for him, he can't accept at all, he said that if he know that will be lose, why not he just put the money into FD?! I have try to explain everything, but he not listen at all, he just live in his world... He just believe what he think... He bring the newspaper is the advertisement of Our company.... There was some award and a list of our good performance fund name list... He ask that is that company take the fundholder money put into others fund for push the performance... I try to give him some general knowledge... But he just like close his ear... And he want to see the manager... That time, I have think that, should I call the the servicing agent? Instead of ask the manager come to the counter... ? I have pick up the phone and start dial the first three number... And I stop... Because I know some of agent they have no responsibility at all... If I call them, they maybe will challenge the customer and makes the customer more angry... So I put down the phone, and walk to my manager... After I tell her about the story, she said she will help me to explain to customer... And she did... But the thing is, after my boss she came out to the counter, and everytime that she try to explain, the customer was try to argue with her and ask my boss give back the money to him.. What he means is full amount that he have invest... How can it be? He just like lost control, finally my boss ask me to help the customer make the redeemsion due to the customer request too...
I dunno how to say and how to do... Have do the correct decision? That's no answer... Only the time I'm doing the appraisal will know...
What I know is my preformance is just like a nut!!!!
Hope that's not so bad like my imagine...
Hope that my boss can more look for my strength...
I hope soooooo...
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