2009

Today is 31 December 2009
End of this year...
Now I try to call back all memory for this year...
About my job... I know I have try my best...
About my family... I know I do not enough for them...
For my friend, sorry, I have not much time to stay with you all...
For my colleague, I know I really not good in this part...
Eventhough I know between us have some misunderstanding...
Sometime, I'll very upset in some status, and I can't control it...
Few months ago, I'll take it very hard... in my heart...
But after that, all the time after the fire burn inside my heart, I'll think back... I 'll try to understand it... and try to feel it...
But now only I realize, if only me slow down my attitude is not enough... cause if other party can't understand or they take harder for long long time... for sure the problem won't be solve forever... exspecially for someone who is arrogant and conceited
anyway... I just hope that everthing in 2010 all the best...
I'll try do more better in this new year...

Tear

This few day I feel very sad... I dunno why...
or maybe I know... but just I can face it...

For few days... I cry... I can't even control my tear...

I know...
For me... friendship is very important...
So I can accept my friend betray me... I can't!!!!!
Maybe sometime they will in their bad mood... maybe they need to stay alone...
But... I think when someone in their bad mood... friendship is very important...
Friend can give support...
When you not at home... or maybe something that we can't tell our family...
FRIEND is our support...
This is what I always know...

But now SO BAD...
I dont know how to face this all of thing...
I can even face myself...
I don't want to see anyone... except my Family...
I don't know even what should i do in come true...

I need some help... need some support...
I need a PUSH...
Can someone help me????

God~~~~ Can you help me????

内心的愧欠

刚才妈妈和我说了一件事情，是关于我的将来．．．
她是在关心,可是其实说真的,当时还真的满生气的,因为她好像有点不了解我现在的情况就教训我．．．
可是现在认真想一想,说真．．．　还满内疚的.．．　ｍｏｍｍｙ如果有天你看见我bｌｏｇ．．．
我现在想和你说.．．　妈,对不起.．．　爸,对不起．．．
抱歉... ... ...
从我出生直到我小学毕业,我所想到的... ... 只有我自己．．．
小学毕业直到中学毕业,我关心的... ... 只有同学．．．
中学毕业直到工作,我关心的... ... 只有朋友，同学...和这花花世界...
甚至我会想到我们的宠物,但．．．　却很可惜的, 我往往都忽略了你们... ...
一直到家里发生了事．．．
可是.．．　我却很自私的.．．选择了逃避.．．我逃避了自己的父母, 我开始逃避,我不想回家,甚至讨厌回家... 我讨厌你们告诉我的一切一切...
虽然,我从小就知道我迟早会面对这事情, 可是... 我是接受了... 可是却没办法面对...
对不起... 对不起... ...
在你们需要我的支持时, 我所给的却只有逃避...
抱歉... ...
这一切一切都代表了我的不孝．．．
我很希望一切回到从前, 回到那无忧无虑的日子...
也许,一切会变得不一样...
现在,上天给了我一个微笑...
我知道... 不可能了... ...
我必须对我的人生负责...
同样的,你们的将来... 我也必须弥补...
我会尽力的... 直到有一天... 你们都离开我了... 不要我了...
才会放弃你们给我的...
我会陪着你们, 一起走...

A very good friday

Today is Friday...
My mood quite good...
My good friend talk with me again...
When she talk to me again... I feel like going to cry...
Sometime... I just think... Is that I'm a very bad friend???
But no body can give me an answer...
Maybe they think so...
Maybe I'm really bad...
But today is a good day...
I'll never do the stupid thing to hurt my friend any more...
I will try to protect their heart...
Make all the thing clear...
Misunderstanding won't happen anymore...

I PROMISE~~~~

Night

Today is 2nd of May...
is Saturday... morning 4a.m.
from 1th of May till now...
I can't sleep at all!!!
Nothing can do...
What should I do???
Watching TV?? No... Nothing can see!!!
Seaching Net?? No... Nothing is I want to seach!!!
On line chat with my dear friend???... I guess they all in their sweet dream!!!
Eating??? No way!!! That is fat enough for me!!!

So what should I do???

Try to sleep loh...

21 Feb 2009 - In Hap Yai

Yesterday morning I wake up at 7a.m.
I know I'm late (I should wake up at 6a.m.)
At the same time, my friend is waiting me at my house main door...hahah... terrible

We arrived Thailand at 10 something in the morning, after we take our breakfast go go to market which is near to the town...
There was very hot even not so many people at there... But I still have but a T-shirt to my brother and some food from there...

Then we go to a shopping center... There's the place I spend all the money... (So SAD... I need to take some time to saving back)

Then we take a lunch at town, after lunch we take a walk around there... hahah 7p.m. we back... But until 10 something I arrived home... (That why today I wake up at 3 o'clock in the afternoon... hahah

Hope that I can go again... I' not shopping enough... hahah... Saving 1st lah...


This is my lunch at Hap Yai

I'M I BAD???

last Friday my executive blame me and said I always late, and didn't have team work, some more said me no respect her... Don't know why I always need to face this kind of problem... so stupid...

Others... she have said also "ALL MY JOB I HAVE SUB TO YOU ACTUALLY IS TRY TO HELP YOU... CAUSE BOSS WILL LOOK AT YOU AND SAID YOU ARE INITIATIVE..." so that means all the job that she should do and I need to do for her lah!!!! Some more said I not hardworking and always sit a behind counter!!! some more lunch time cannot go out with my friend and need to take alone... some more said I always said her bad thing behind her!!!

WHAT THE WORLD??????