8 Dec 2008

Now is 4:19 a.m.
I'm alone~~~
But feel OK
Just because tomorrow I will go KL for training...
11:45 a.m. o'clock flight

I think I will be spend more money in this time.. ..
Just because of puzzle...
May be will shopping for a while... ...

Thanks

Ha~~~~ Ha~~~~
So long time didn't sign in... ...
Lucky that I still remember the password... ...

Now I can feel everything fresh, cause just have a rain at here... ...
Hope that every day... every time... every minutes... every seconds... the sky... the weather... the air... the people... will always like now...

But I known!
IMPOSSIBLE
I known It... ...

People always trust about luck...
Same like me...
When I face some trouble... I'll said "I'M IN BAD LUCK"
When I solve the trouble... I'll said "I'M IN GOOD LUCK"

So???
Will the trouble always be solve?
I don't think so... ...
Just try to believe "I CAN DO IT"
If can't!!!
Never mind...
I know I have already do it...
And I also have try my best... ...
Just some time... ... feel unfair ... too blue in my life... and feel too sad...
I know I need a friend...
Who is can always stand at my side can give me some support...


And I know~~~~

"I HAVE"... ... "THANKS"

Just A Trip

18 Oct 2008
I'm in "Hap Yai"
Too long ago.... I didn't take a walk like that...
Feel so good...
Stay away from my everything...
Do the thing that I want...
All the thing is follow my mind...
What I want?


Just like this...

The Third Day

Em...
They still in cold war...
I know that my Dad feel so angry with me...
Maybe disappointed also...
Cause he think that I didn't care about him or help him...
But he don't know that now I try to let mom cold down...
At the same time I also chat with Mom about Dad...
Of cause all the time I try to let Mom know that Dad is love her and care about her...
I also story something is good about Dad...
But he never know...
what is he know is I'm bad...
He must be think I'm try to sling mud him...
But the true is I'm not...
Hope he will know and understand soon... ...

The Second Day

Today is the second day they dispute...
But they didn't meet each other...
My mom, I think she still can't forgive my dad...

A hole day...
I didn't saw my dad...
just now I have cook some dinner...
I'm so worry my dad...
I'm worry he have take some food or no...
cause my brother said the afternoon he bring some lunch to my dad, he can't eat...
always he will eat too many...
But I know... now he too sad and worry...
But I can't do anything...
I want... I want to phone him...
But I scare... I don't what can I said...
I scare I will cry...
But my mom look like nothing...
how good that if I know what are they think about...

God... Can you help me?
I need my family be good...
PLEASE... now I'm in painful...
PLEASE... Help us...

FAMILY

Quit some time I didn't log in
Today I face some problem
But at the same time I also comprehend some true which is hide in my hear so long

FAMILY
I have it....
Before that have a person tell me
FAMILY is Father And Mother I Love You

But today they bickering
And maybe will divorce

Always I feel that if they divorce is nothing will effect me
But just now I feel so sad, so pain and hope they be together forever...
And I really always hope that they will be the lucky and the happy one....

But today... the hole day is tears...
They cry... and we cry...

Whatever mather...
We all in blue...
sad...

I try to make it nothing...
Just like normal...
But no use
Because is lie... I try to lie myself...
They still in pain... in the heart...

I cry...
I feel so sad...
I feel unfair...
"WHY..." this word my mom today ask me so many many time...
I can't give a answer...
Cause I also don't know why...
Or maybe that's nothing why in the true...
Nothing in why... just because it being...
And It's happen...

But I known I can accept it
Just...
I not sure that how I can arrange...
And how to give a consolation...

I feel not good...
At this time...
I can feel that I always not at my dad side...
Too much time I stay with my friend...

My FAMILY...
The most time that I sharing my thing and my dream with them is just my youngest sister for my brother and the younger sister, I will solve the problem with them if I can't do with my self... At the time I working... Always at the lunch time I will meet my mom... cause my office near to her office after her company move... So the time I saw my dad is after work... but because our office is far away from our house so the time I'm home it was 6:30p.m. already... And after take a bath and dinner... he will go out again... So I less to chat with him... Saturday and Sunday... He will go out with mom... So not so much that we can chat...
How sad we are....

So today... I really feel so sorry to my dad...
As a daughter... I known I do nothing to him...
Like tonight... He now must be alone at his shop...
But what can I do???
Just sit at here... Do nothing again...

I KNOW...
I'M THE MOST BAD DAUGHTER IN THE WORLD...

Worry

Now I'm feel so down...
My heart feel so worry...
Sad...

When he will be ok?
I know that...
I known now he must be very painful...
Just he can't tell me...
I know he cry...
But I can't do anything...
I can't help...

I don't know what should I do...
Maybe I should stop to give him the medicine...
But I worry the wound will be more serious...
Because the wound is festering already...

But if I give the medicine... ...

Before that he never take any medicine...
He can recover by himself...
Just need to take sometime...

What should I do???

P/S : God... please bless my DyDy be health and happy same as all my family and pet... please... and thank you...

07/07/08

Today is Monday,,,
I'm MC again...
this time is real... ...
very painful... very painful...
maybe it too long didn't come and visit me... ...
but normal... ...

When I work...
I always think I want to rest...
But now...
I at home already... ...
my heart... where are you???
I'm was thinking my work my job...

When I stay at my house...
My dad always came and noisy with me...
maybe he being old
but i think that DODO may more prefer to listen about him
I always don't known what to do...
hopefully somebody can teach me how to do...
how much I hope that I still can continue my study...
then no body can disturb me...
will somebody proud of me.... for now?
I think never...
no body like me... I know that...

PBB - Annual Dinner

21th June is PUBLIC BANK annual dinner

So as PBB Group staff, I need to attend it...
That's a very good day...
Except the weather... too hot
All the girl and boy wearing nicely but except me...
The fat person always be the ugly one...

Before we go to the dinner... we take a shopping...
At the complex... have a girl take a peek at me...
After that she was told something to her boyfriend...
After that.... they laugh... ...
I know what are they thinking... ...
Same as me if i saw a person who's was very big size and wearing a dinner wear walk every where... ...
Maybe i will laugh to she also...

But this time I be hurt... ...

少年故事

彭坦
少年故事

Not Bad... ... ...

WHY ?

WHY????
Today I'm already ask myself many many many of time..... WHY?
How can they do this for me?
They are my friend....
How can they try to tell other person about my secret?
How they can do this for me?
Because of they feel that it will very fun?
But that will be hurt some one....
How can they so stupid like that....
How can I trust they any more?
Trip again....?
STUPID............!!!!!

1/2 EL

Today is 8 April 2008
I should be in office already...
but actually no...
after I send my mom to work...
I run back to home...
actually i just want to take my jacket, after that will go back to office,
but suddenly I have think something,
I still have 1/2 day leave didn't clear it...
so I give a call to my colleague...

Today is a lazy day... May be...

So... just a half day I take...
Is a Emergency Leave... ...

To My S Friend

Dear Friend

I have see your blog just now...
I have so long time didn't chat with you
Every time when I start my computer, first thing I will do is open your blog and see what news that you have update...
But almost time I will disappointed, because you never update it...
So I always don't known what's going on with you...
Hopefully I will always understand you...
But you never give me a chance...
Is that because I have hurt you before???
Sometime I was thinking that, Are we still be friend...
But I scared to asking this question...


Because the answer maybe "NO"

Chinese New Year

For this year, my Chinese New Year was so~~~~~~~~ boring.....
Nothing to do and Nothing to say....
Yesterday I'm start working already....
So SAD~~~~~
Too many thing I need to follow up~~~~
Too many responsibility.....
Make me can't breathe....
Everyday so tired....
When I can take a rest???
Hopefully I can take a long leave....
But the problem is I can't stop to think my job and work....
I think I will miss my job even when I was retire...

One more thing is .....
when chinese new year
I was forgot to take back my handphone charger...
So in this chinese new year...
My handphone status is in low battery...
So sorry to my friend....
whatever you have call me or sms me...
I can't pick up the call to answer you or reply you...
Because I known, if I press one of the botton...
It will be switch off...
So sorry.... Because I need to known who's else will try to call me again....
But anyway....
You will know....
I have reply you already right?
Even the Chinese New Year is over already...
Ha~~~ But I do it.....
So.... I hope you all will have a HAPPY, PEACH, HEALTHY and SUCCESSFUL CHINESE NEW YEAR....

My Heart = Yoga

林宥嘉
这人的声音好棒哦~~~~

听到他的声音就觉得很安全...

被他唱过的歌
就算本来不好听
从他的歌喉唱出来的话
我觉得都会变得.... -- 超好听

为什么我都找不到他的专辑啊???

难道要我打到唱片公司问吗???

Sad Day

AH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


How hope that I can shout out!!!

Today morning, I alone go service car...

Alone go for work.....
Work alone.....
Take lunch alone.....
Take dinner alone.....
Now I'm alone at house.....
I hate........
I not hate alone.....
Just hate no body understand me.....
I enjoy alone.....
But I hate someone disturb me.....
Why they always like to ask me do this do that????
Why they can't do their thing by themselve?
I already very very tired already....
No body can understand me, how pressure I am.....
Even they are my family........... THEY DON'T KNOW ME.........
HOW A SAD LIFE........

Unnecessary Trouble

最近很烦啊~~~

不知道为什么...
工作量好像很多...
可是,每次当我投入其中时,又好像没东西做...
可是当回到家时...
又想起好像遗漏掉什么东西忘了做...
好烦哦~~~

有时候,
东西明明都做不完,
可是却因为和mommy同一辆车上下班的关系...
而导致放弃继续完成工作...
因为这个困扰,
有时候明明很想stay OT都不能这么做...
有时候,Mommy会对我说-
"你stay多一点的OT,那就可以claim OT了啊"
可是,当我对她说我今天要留OT时,她的脸就会表现得很困扰的样子...
根本就没办法嘛...

工作都已经这么烦了...
最近那些agent又一直要请客...
吖哟...莫名其妙...又没有人要他们请!!!
为什么每一年都要请一次呢?
而且,有不是一个人请而已...
他们不同人,请不一样的日子...
目前为止,在一月份已经有3个人请吃了...
为什么要这么麻烦呢?
莫名其妙...
如果推掉他们的话,他们又会不高兴!!!
就好像去年那样...
当他们告诉我,他们请吃的时间地点时,我就推推掉他们...
结果,我的下场就是给他们问东问西!!!
更可怜的是,他们还摆一副臭脸给我看...

唉~~~希望一切的烦恼与不幸早日离我而去~~~

Hero

Hero - Mariah Carey 的其中一首歌...
不过这首我特别喜欢...
很想和大家分享...
不过我并没有对任何人说起有这个blog的存在...
也许在这世上的人...
不会有任何人知道有这个blog的存在吧...
不告诉任何人关于这个blog
是因为我觉得
我还是让自己保留些空间比较好...
唉~~~

如果你发现了这个LUCKY HOPE GARDEN...
那就证明了
你和我很有缘loh~~~
听一听Mariah Carey 的HERO吧...
roll下去就看得到了...
不错哦...
希望有缘的你会喜欢...

这首歌是我在2007年10月19日
在Genting Highland的training room 里
我们的trainer播放给我们听...
当然,目的是要让我们坚强和希望-HOPE
这堂课真的很不错...
两天的training都让我们玩的很开心
不过在前两天...
我在家大扫除时
发现当时trainer给我们的note book
不见了...(很伤心)